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The house of cards balanced on plates that I'm juggling (in that "too many deadlines and not enough hours in my day" sort of way) may be starting to crumple. Which means, of course, that I really ought to buck up and plow forward full steam ahead until I catch up.
It also means that the juggling act is crumpling because I have ZERO energy and am surviving on caffeine and more caffeine and that blurry brain dead haze that comes with too much caffeine and the idea of trying to do MORE in order to make up for what I already can't seem to get around to doing on time sort of defies the laws of physics.
[small hand wave] I may have just blown my perfect 4.0 GPA, and I really mean that this time as I currently have a B posted for that overall class grade. It's entirely possible I can bust my ass for the next two weeks to bring that back around, but first I have to find the spark in me that gives a rat's ass, even if it's just in competition to myself because perfect strings of A's are shiny on some juvenile level. (It's like earning gold stars and it's a novelty and a feather in my cap - my former previous best was 3.4GPA in highschool - and no, nobody's going to care one bit once I get the damned diploma, but yeah. boo hoo WTF-EVER.)
Mostly, right now, I would like the last round of coffee to wear off so that I can get some sleep, I would like to find enough umph to get things done what need doing, and I would like my right shoulder/arm/wrist to stop with the constant dull aching throb (unless I move it wrong, and then it's the sharp aching pain).
[another small hand wave] This has just been your daily whine. Nothing to see here. =P
It also means that the juggling act is crumpling because I have ZERO energy and am surviving on caffeine and more caffeine and that blurry brain dead haze that comes with too much caffeine and the idea of trying to do MORE in order to make up for what I already can't seem to get around to doing on time sort of defies the laws of physics.
[small hand wave] I may have just blown my perfect 4.0 GPA, and I really mean that this time as I currently have a B posted for that overall class grade. It's entirely possible I can bust my ass for the next two weeks to bring that back around, but first I have to find the spark in me that gives a rat's ass, even if it's just in competition to myself because perfect strings of A's are shiny on some juvenile level. (It's like earning gold stars and it's a novelty and a feather in my cap - my former previous best was 3.4GPA in highschool - and no, nobody's going to care one bit once I get the damned diploma, but yeah. boo hoo WTF-EVER.)
Mostly, right now, I would like the last round of coffee to wear off so that I can get some sleep, I would like to find enough umph to get things done what need doing, and I would like my right shoulder/arm/wrist to stop with the constant dull aching throb (unless I move it wrong, and then it's the sharp aching pain).
[another small hand wave] This has just been your daily whine. Nothing to see here. =P