rock and a hard place

[glasmalerei]

I have (probably accurately) diagnosed myself as PMSing. (My schedule is NOT regular, nor are my symptoms the same from one cycle to the next. HOWEVER, it's been about 3.5 weeks since the last round, which would put the PMS ramp up at about normal, and realizing this morning that the mere sound of a co-worker's voice, regardless of WHAT he was talking about, was making me homicidal like claws on a blackboard, is a good indicator when coupled with the tendency to bust up into tears over random things.)

The symptoms: irrational anger, volatile emotions (crying jags), less brain-to-mouth filtering, inability to cope with stress or heaps of things to do, persistent fatigue, headaches

Now, the easy solution is that I pop back on the celexa for a bit - it takes effect more or less immediately and cancels out nearly 95% of the above symptoms.

HOWEVER, it has its own list of accompanying symptoms, mainly: inability to focus, inability to concentrate, hyperactivity, inability to coherently string thoughts/words together in a meaningful fashion

In other words, I can be depressed and angry and shaky OR I can be ADD with a side of foggy. Either is not such a good recipe for upcoming finals week. u___u

I bloody damned well hate my body and its stupid Special Snowflake stupidity. A LOT.